First I awoke at 5 am in the midst of a powerful dream... long story- I was so disappointed that as the daylight mind awoke the dream was gone in a flash.

How could it be gone??  I was so engrossed in it.. I wonder  The complex feeling of the dream lingered like a low hanging cloud on a foggy day. But I couldn’t capture the story line. I resolved next time to work on remembering my dreams,The moment before the conscious mind takes over.

I awoke again  at 6:30... And thank you god  I remembered this time because she was a truly wonderful dream.

DREAM

Joan and Marlene had both come to visit. I needed to call them back to make a date to see them.

I was sitting in my bedroom when a young lady/boy??) comes in

“.I am feeling jealous all the  time “ she confides very upset...

 I smile warmly- “me too” I say laughing...” Its quite aright  - It’s very normal. I myself am feeling jealous all the time. Its just human”

Now She/he relaxes... in walk 2 other young women...

Suddenly I realize they are all my children and we’re all psychics...

They arrange for us to make a movie- are the interviewing each other...to tell this story of all of us coming together-

There is one Hispanic gal. I think she is really my daughter returned.. Gerardo her father, and the 2 other gals... and a 14 year old black boy...

He’s putting paper into the printer but using the wrong kind old holed paper they used to use years ago. The printer has got jammed...

Its wonderful to see them all working together- how much I have. This large family of mine.

I call to Sammy to meet his brothers and sisters... I have gone into an adjoining room.
I observe Sammy with a  2year old baby boy. This baby loves to throw himself on the floor and giggle... Sammy’s totally enjoying him...

The thought comes to me they could all gang up together and rob me...

They could break all my video equipment because they are not being careful

 I am so full of love for my new family... I call Gerardo. To tell him about all my new children’ I want to call Joan and Marlene but of course  phones they don’t work..

I wake up with so much joy... remembering this loving dream...

this feeling of being a matriarch to all these young people,,

Monday, December 03, 2012

So there is a radio show being taped. And the guys have a great idea to interview this female cosmology scientist. And they know she’s going to discuss her complex theory of the big bang and they're setting it up to make her look the fool. They think it will be so much fun and everyone will get a big kick out of it.

No one likes her- not even me (she reminds me of d Lisa diamond) very superior in her adittude  BUT I KNOW THIS IS REALLY CRUEL- and i suggest that i be the interviewer- "Well perhaps," the bosses say -= 
"it would be good to have a female scientist interviewed by a female,"  i suggest - knowing than if i do it I will turn if around so they won't  Be able to make fun of her... and i will put in my theory of the female nature of the universe

I recall the visual was something like an underwater scene as she told us what  she would speak about and explained complex terms of the continuous birthing of the universe not one big bang

swimming in rhythm with the forces of nature

4/12/2012

I am swimming in a small kind lake- I can touch the bottom. There are pigeon type birds swimming there. I stop swimming so as not to disturb the birds. When they feel me moving the birds move away. I can see them on top of the lake like round grey masses gently moving- they know I am there but as long as I don’t move, they are content to be near me- gradually more of them come around me. I become part of the family of birds I am accepted- as long as I am quiet and very slow-

I enter into a world of quite peace

Then a group of women come into the lake – they are young in their twenties - probably 25 of them or so – I try to tell them about the birds but to no avail.

I realize they are with the orthodox Jewish group that have come to visit- oh I ask are you in a mikvah ? (Jewish ritual bathing for purification) yes I see that is what they are doing. And enjoying themselves... across the way In a connected pool is a group of young adults having pool party and all dressed up like at hotel.i notice some young men in suits that are entering the hotel pool party from our pool and their pants leg are wet - they don't seem to mind- maybe they are sneaking in from our pool

Suddenly the Jewish girls all begin to leave- "what happened ?" I ask – "someone touched a red purse." (That is forbidden to touch a red purse - so that ends the mikvah) so sorry I think - they were having such a lovely time.

I walk out of the pool very slowly I am still in an altered state from the bird teaching. I walk by lovely plants and feel a connection to all living things being in this slow mode,

Previous dream

I am with Cousin Barry he is showing me picture on Kauai small towns on that islands are really just a castle kind of structure and people who live around it is the town. So easy to go to Kauai I think why I haven’t gone??

Barry and I are in relationship but we never had physical contact – I think we are breaking up I can see  Barry  feels kind of lost – he has been looking for something he can not find. I suggest he go back to New York where he was so creative and re-group his old group- I understand that working in a group is so much more powerful than working alone- I think why I haven’t been in contact with Stan and I was so close to them at one time.

In the dream I see that the power will be in towns and cities no longer the states or countries just like the money is now in the hands of families rather than corporations

 I recall the parties that Barry manifested- with powerful artists.

March 5, 2012

Dream

I was at a college taking courses.

Sue Siegel was there too.

She wanted to do some meditating but all they had was meditation connected to various Subject matter – not general simple meditation. She was disappointed.

I was in a course – some kind of electronics.

I knew better than the guys how to fix stuff because of my computer background.

I realized they weren’t aware of my knowledge. I felt like an elder with wisdom. I would let them know when the time was appropriate.

I went to the lobby of a building between classes.

They told me Natalie wood was on campus but she was dressed like a man because she didn’t want anyone knowing she was there. Also she may have become a lesbian and that was why she was dressed like that. Had cut her hair and dyed it blond possibly too I pictured her with very short curly hair first burnete than blond.

Sue Siegel wants me to carry some of her stuff back to the main building or back to our place we were sharing.

I thought to myself I have as much to carry as she does-

She was insisting I carry it. I left trapped that I had to do it. Was figuring out how to refuse.she  told me to call her – she had no cell phone I was to call her home phone in some other state and she gets her messages directly from that phone.

There was another part of the dream

I was served food. It was delicious. I had some leftovers on the plate and asked where I should put them to save it for later...

No they informed me- we don’t keep left over’s we throw them out.

(I was embarrassed because I had served them leftovers previously and they were polite enough not to tell me at that time they didn’t eat leftovers.- It was peas and corn in a lovely delicious mix)

 I RECALLED GERARDO'S BROTHER WHO WAS INSULTED WHEN I SERVED HIM LEFTOVERS (true)

magic time

The dream  Jan 19^th 2012

I am in a classroom – elementary school.

There is a boy waiting with a stack of soft covered books.

We will read them after this lesson.

He is very excited about it. He loves this book this author.

When we are finally ready to read the book. In walks the author.

She is going to read it loud to the class,

 I sit with the boy.

I notice that the author has the same red stamp on her thumb that the boy has put on his. It has something to do with the story. I wonder at this.

There is magic in the story. What you say will come true.

There is something said about an ascent and then a fall into water.

As the story goes on I see each character climbs something different- even we go up in an elevator- ascend and then come down in a car that loses its brakes and we go into the water.  I realize the power of this book.

Now we are in a café. Coffee and cakes people alienated separated. I stand up. I say no this is a friendly place. Every one talk to the person in the next table.

The boy gets up on a table. This is not a lawyer’s café he says humorously.

This is a place for friendship.

 I say who wants to play chess. Then I want to qualify it.

I can’t play very well I start to say but it’s too late. Someone has some over to challenge me,

Best part of the dream was to realize we had entered magic time- and I was buddies with they boy.

david the director

Friday, November 25, 2011

First I am driving a Volkswagen. Turning a curve on a mountainous road. I want to fit the car into like a glove or a parking space. As  I try to do it,  I reach the curve and then decide its better if I go around the curve first  pull off the road and do it there so no one behind me will crash into me-

I am able to do it. Then I find myself with a man there, the situation changes now instead of fitting the car into the glove I want to make love with the man, we are in a lovely mood enjoying each other, and I feel free and adored by this new fellow.

He finds out they want him to direct a new Broadway play and they want me to act in it too. We go to stay in a hotel they have picked out for us. I get some new clothes . We are in the hotel room. We don’t use our names as we don’t want anyone to find us. This new man is very famous. His name is David, I don’t know much about him - he's very intriguing.  We see some men run by, in front of our windows. They are up to something- I think they must be  on the roof but when I look out I see our room is on the first floor.  

Mary and family arrive at our room. Darryl has met a large group of tourists and has been filming them but the film was done badly and has to be thrown away. Somehow he is also Sidney and I am annoyed he spends all this time taking films of people he hardly knows when he could be with the family.

Mary tells me we are all going to the beach, I must change into my bathing suit. Doris jacoby starts to go through my suitcase wants to see what kind of clothes I have and how I have packed. I know she wont be impressed.

I am disturbed by her nosiness.

The best part of the dream is the acceptance and care from this david man.

Thanksgiving 11/24/11-
 Very sleepy today so this is a nap dream
It is so wonderful to awaken from a nap when the dream is still with you.
I was walking through our bottom floor apartment. We lived in a project where all the apartments were attached and only one floor.
AS I walked from room to room everyone was gone I wondered where could they be. Must be outside I thought. There they were, all looking up at the sky, with our neighbor, a kind of strange guy who had been telling us he was seeing things in the sky. Sure enough I looked up and there was a circle of pulsating and emerging light and color in the middle of the daylight sky,  reds and yellows - kind of like a ring of fire . I watched for a while wondering what it was .
“Oh my god I thought this is real, He’s right. Something’s going on. How far can people see this i wonder. How extensive is the view.”My mother my father Sammy our entire family is there together.
Then I was told oh this is a show of what others have seen.  Someone had put it up for us to view. Then this is not actually happening now? I ask disappointed- then I can’t really believe it - they may be putting up something that is false...
The young neighbor guy said “I’ve been indicted.’
“ For what?”  I ask.
“They don’t like that I’m telling peole about this”
“But indicted doesn’t mean your going to jail... just that they want to talk with you”  I say.
 I feel a connection with this guy. They are siting around a table outside with treats and drinks. I start helping move things back into our apartment not really sure what’s our and what’s his.
 My mother says to him. “You really shouldn’t let aunt Lil do everything for you”, chastising him.
I realize with this statement how much she adores this fellow and want s to mother him. I feel connected to him because I don’t really fit in my family as I’m a wee bit weird like him.   I Sense that he’s interested in me and that makes me happy,.